is that bad? or at least having removed the most triggering offenders
I’m in this picture, but to be honest: It’s a peaceful life.
It really is.
Fuck. Ouch.
…thanks.
That’s what we’re doing today? We’re gonna fight?
Sorry if I triggered you. I hope you can find healing. 🫶
which allows me time to heal :3
time and space & time and space
Now listen here you little shit, all some of us have is delusion
I’ll take what I can get.
What if I see nothing wrong with this?
I’m too tired to give chances anymore. I just want to get high, watch my shows, play my games, read and sleep. I don’t need someone like my ex screaming at me or my old best friend deciding that after a break up the best thing to do was to try and get in my pants.
Have a friend on a ‘healing journey’ and they reading declassified MK ultra docs like its the bible. Bruh.
I swear to god dude those files changed 12 year old me when I found out about them.
It seriously tore me apart I was asking all of my teachers about it, every single adult I know “Did you know that we did this?? Why don’t we learn about this here in school?” I obsessed over it.
My dad finally told me to tone it the fuck down, so I did. But I still think about them all the time because it was like one of the first glimpses I had into the fact that people we are supposed to trust are untrustworthy.
I was about 12 or 13 when I read them too on some obscure shady forum and I was like “This is crazy conspiracy theorist shit.” Little did I know, those crazy conspiracy nuts were on to something
Like, thinking that was done to them or…
Because ngl reading those docs does sound fascinating, but not in any way healing
Like ‘If I meditate hard enough with LSD and have a goat lick my ***hole I can achieve godhood and it won’t matter that my ex cheated on me’ kinda thing.
Ah yes, the “acid and meditation will fix all my problems” instead of “acid and meditation will sit me down and force me to confront some of my problems”. Such a simple mistake but so many make it
WOW a reader! So whats up! I would love to pick their brain. Cool interest but subject is bleak which is fine with me. Did you tell them how you feel? or other people?
If you’re a reader check them out
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MKUltra
Some of the ones I remember most are the ones where the pediatricians would experiment on the bodies of some of the kids who died in the hospitals and not tell the parents, and when they gave that CIA guy a heroic mega dose of LSD and put him in a mirrored room with prostitues and he jumped out a window or the one where they fed kids in the “science club” at their school irradiated oats from the Quaker Oats corporation (trademark! They knew about it) just to see what would happen to them.
There’s way worse than that in there though. Some real freakshow shit but honestly just imagine all the shit someone was reading through all this saw to want to black out whole pages of information.
I bet you its because some of it might still be ongoing.
What’s the difference?
Wounds don’t really heal if they’re being constantly reopened / irritated. Once the source of the injury is removed, some wounds will heal with time, and others require more specialized treatment. For that latter type, the lack of constant reinjury can feel a lot like healing, but it’s not quite the same, and old injuries can flare up and/or have secondary issues down the line. Finding and healing them is a long and inconstant process that only really starts after escaping the cause of the damage. An analogy might be pulling someone out of a collapsed building, then treating them for the effects of asbestos exposure.
I was kinda shit-answering but good answer!
However I am afraid neurodivergence actually makes a difference as we re-experience our pains constantly.
It surely does, though I don’t think self-harming mental patterns are exclusive to neurodivergent folk.
Oh I wasn’t talking about self harming patterns. It’s the neurotypical harming us/me routinely.
(without evil intent but just as a result of the 99% vs 1% behavior, so it’s just normal)
Yes, but in such cases healing involves learning how to avoid some of those pains and manage and cope with the rest.
Some of us are just out of luck, there’s literally nothing.
One is good for you, while the other just makes your condition both progressively worse and harder to escape from.
Thanks, however I was shit-answering but that got me to thinking… It absolutely depends.
lol sorry
I should be better at reading tone.
Ah no harm done
Am I supposed to just you know, open myself up to the species that systematically mistreated me, paint a target on my back again? Put my hand down on the stove again? After so much time looking for alternatives?
I’m not even sure what kind of people it would take for me to unclam again, what lies it would take to fool me.
U can trust me, World’s dumbest man.
But only if you pinky promise not to sell state secrets I’m going to tell you?
Of course, I wouldn’t even know where the Chinese consulate is or how to contact the intelligence officer there.
Certainly, you’re no secret…waaaaait a second…
Small consolation, maybe, but I doubt the entire species is to blame!? But I do feel you, truly, especially your last sentence.
Sharks analogy again. Not all of them will bite, but you don’t know which one will.
Same thing
exactly…
Wrong: the isolation also triggers me
Shit toxic people say…
